Etaoin Shares New Single ‘If I Ever Find Home’

London-based Irish singer and songwriter Etaoin has just shared her brand new single If I Ever Find Home, the latest single to be taken from her sophomore EP, I Hate Everyone (but I don’t mind you), out now via MADE Records. 
I am really enjoying the warmth and intimate atmosphere of the song that allows for the listeners to fully focus on Etaoin's gorgeous vocals and storytelling. Produced by Brad Ellis, If I Ever Find Home is a heart-on-sleeve lesson in melancholia that sees Etaoin at her most vulnerable and intimate yet. This is a song about one's first heartbreak and the how it can make someone feeling completely lost, broken and alone. It's a song about how that experience makes someone a more guarded person because of the pain they've been through. 
Apart from her gorgeous vocals, I am particularly fond of the intricate acoustic guitar plucks throughout the song and how they are nicely paired with emotive piano keys and subtle beats that together create an overall warm and intimate atmosphere perfect for an introspective day home alone. Check it out below!



Speaking of the new single, Etaoin said:
I wrote 'If I Ever Find Home' about my first heartbreak. The song is about feeling totally alone and lost. I wrote it at a time when I felt like I had been searching in the dark for months just trying to find my old self again after things ended with the first boy I ever loved. We had been best friends for years, he had told me he had feelings for me but ultimately chose another girl over me. I lost my best friend and the person I cared about so much all in one. School was a total nightmare, I’d see them around making out in the hallway and literally wanted to curl up and disappear. 
The thing that I think everyone finds hardest about their first heartbreak, is that since you’ve never felt pain like that before you don’t know if it’s gonna get better. So you end up searching for them in the faces of strangers on the underground, calling them drunk, keeping your friends up on the phone obsessing over everything that went wrong, deleting their number in anger and then regretting it because you miss them way more than you could ever hate them. It completely breaks you down and then builds you back up into a new, more guarded person.